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[vexant]

( this is the opposite of the sleep he wanted. but fine, julian will settle for some more time to lay down. so he shoves his face into josh's neck, takes a deep breath. )

Yeah? It the kind of deal you want to make with Satan?

[goldtoxicity]

I dunno.

[ he loops his arms comfortably around julian, letting one hand cradle the back of his head. ]

Less of a deal and more a gift, I guess... He's offering me more control over my powers.

[vexant]

Is there a catch?

( when did he become okay with cuddling? this is weird. but he's not complaining about it, just throwing a leg over josh's hips and getting himself comfortable. )

[goldtoxicity]

Didn't mention one, but that doesn't mean there isn't one.

[ guess he's here now. trapped forever. ]

[vexant]

It's not your power you struggle with.

( soft, mumbled as his eyes close again. )

It's your heart, you idiot.

[goldtoxicity]

My heart?

[ just kind of... petting his hair a little. nice and soft. ]

[vexant]

Don't make me explain you to yourself.

( god josh it isn't hard to notice. )

You can manipulate bodies down to their individual cells, your control over that crap's fine. But when something pisses you off or upsets you? That's when shit gets dicey. It's not your power, it's your emotions that ruin it for you.

( with an arm raising to (gently, he's still waking up) slap against josh's ribcage, over his heart. )

Those're what get you into crap every time.

[goldtoxicity]

[ he's got a point. ]

I know that.

[ but. ]

I had control before I came here. Real control. Of myself and my powers.

[vexant]

What happened?

( idly, before he shifts his weight over a bit until he's nearly on top of josh.)

[goldtoxicity]

[ mm, a nice julian blanket. ]

World went to hell. Then I went to Hell.

[vexant]

( nope, he's sitting up. weight moving onto his knees and arms over josh. )

World was always hell, it just got worse.

[goldtoxicity]

[ he rests his other hand on julian's hip, tilting his head to look up. ]

Maybe. But normal hell didn't involve the Avengers defending hate rallies, or like, impending extinction.

[vexant]

Avengers are all pieces of shit, so.

( clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth, before he's leaning down a little, until their foreheads touch. )

I want you to fix my hands.

[goldtoxicity]

[ his eyes are drifting shut, content.

and then they snap open. ]

Are you sure?

[vexant]

But if you fuck it up, I'm going to be pissed.

( not a direct answer, maybe. but an answer nonetheless. )

[goldtoxicity]

[ regrowing a limb is pretty easy, honestly. something he'd be able to do in a snap if he were at full strength. ]

I wouldn't.

[vexant]

Don't give me any extra thumbs.

( it's been over a year since he lost his. he's had a shitton of time to adjust to not having--fleshy hands. julian isn't afraid of josh fucking it up, but he is afraid of figuring out what he's supposed to do when things--shift back to normal. "normal". )

[goldtoxicity]

[ he could say a lot to that. how he's touched julian trusts him this much. how he's glad he has him here because everything might suck, but at least he's not in this alone. he could make a joke about how effective julian'd be at hitch-hiking with some extra thumbs.

instead he kisses the corner of julian's mouth. ]

Okay.

[vexant]

( josh goes for a corner. julian turns his head to press in deeper, teeth scraping against josh's lower lip before he sucks it into his mouth and swipes his tongue against it. pulls a little before letting go. )

And don't fuck around with Teddy anymore.

[goldtoxicity]

[ oh, yes. very nice, very wakeful. ]

Dude, I was out of my mind horny. You're the only one I fuck around with.

[vexant]

Yeah, we both know how well that's going to keep up. Look--I don't care. Just not that asshole.

( because teddy made him mad and then he couldn't even beat him up to feel better. )

[goldtoxicity]

I wouldn't have done it if I'd known what an asshole he'd been to you.

[ though you know... shapeshifters have fascinating biology. ]

Won't happen again. I promise.

[vexant]

Whatever. ( rolling alll the way over and off. )

Get out of my bed.

[goldtoxicity]

[ wow he just offered to regrow your HANDS.

okay, fine. okay. getting to his feet and heading for the shower he guesses??? ]

[vexant]

( is josh so used to julian telling him he smells that he automatically heads to the shower when julian tells him to fuck off? like. conditioning josh to shower was part of the plan but not this intensely.

one of his hands reaches out. grabs hold of josh's wrist. )

You're leaving?